From Mill HeAD
Kylan Rice
I can’t help it can’t help anything, can’t help nor build seeing
as I do not know the last thing
about load-bearing, thermosets, viscous gels, extrusion versus
sintering, microdroplets, self-assembly, know only lacuna, gaps, depths of my own
inutility know only
rural space know there is more to interrupt here, more interrupting
of groundbirds, of killdeer, there is nothing to see here, nothing to see nothing to see
this bird insists with its song, space where
not everything
is built, not everything draped in microporous housewrap resistant to bulk
water but still letting breathing happen I am having a hard time
doing that, that
is, breathing, having a hard time not feeling
there is something I need to be doing, need to be, can’t help doing, keep making
the shape of gathering with my arms to explain the idea I have
imagining gathering sheaves while doing it, bundles of, in other words “gavels,” can’t not
think of Thoreau whose friend “Minott was telling me to-day ... used the word ‘gavel’
to describe a parcel of stalks cast down to dry, to desiccate to separate to thresh
hold, this wall-like fusing into doorways into windows into windows, can’t help
this biosynthesis, sintering
this synthetic lace, this stem-cell laced scaffolding, blue Dow weathertape to the lace blue
dress of the mezzo, Mahler’s third symphony, whose whole body is going into it,
compression of gut into breath into song into
mensch
of that
in the song is the breath
From Mill Head
it is only fitting this day day of telomeres, follicles, artificial ovaries, no resolution,
no closure into cell shape, range
but no growth, all reception, assuming as a given
it is too late, there will be no more snow, now
though, the subsurface darkens, the sepal the cuticle, where cell walls ruptured and froze——
that this day should end
before a copy of a Claude Lorrain, consummate framer, View of Delphi
with a Procession here you have the frame the inner frame the double-columned temples
the old-world trees, some shattered boughs what is left of a catastrophic snow one year mid-May
a processural tissue of ivy, resulting tendrilling, venous wrapping-around, building
wrap, Tyvek, air-drilling spindles, spiracles, mill-heads, end effectors, thin threads
of plastic, gelatin, food, cellulose suspended in an acetate, skin as structure, single
production process where wall-like elements fuse into windows into windows, into
framework no,
formwork imagine a building
that is pure response to its environment gatherer of its own on-site data,
building its own building surface out of the local materials, modulating its own
densities, columns, bundles unbundles, fully configural, set loose
in a landscape purely to make, fathom
incorporate, we must begin thinking
in terms of tissues as opposed to parts, begin thinking in terms of life the self a mere
occasion for the swarming of responses for swarmlike life, life a total lack
of disarray, all force, object, objects as forces, where the berry is the transverse stressor, not
as I thought my tongue, the berry the source
of ruin, the ruin of my appetite, my appetite
for anything, collapse
of knowledge into day,day-warmth,thermal decomposition,unframed
light, no end to a life in the same way there is no limit
to periphery, there is always more
there, no limit to how much in being I can be
outside of this, en pleine air
From Mill Head
by what law abide, by what principle (what entry from what master
builder saying where the transverse stress should go, that a double arch will more than double
the strength, lighten the burden
of entries by a factor of what?) what hierarchy, what order
as in, of angels, their choirs, choir of
councillors, governors, ministers, therein find
the principality, the archangel, the angel, angel that is
pure act, just does, is sensory abundance, all at once in the air, in zero gravity
can print metal,
can sinter, zithering, what scaffold but this
bioscaffolding, life wants its structure its trellis its tiny
purposing, its small desire, I like the angel cultivate a small desire, delight
in it, in bearing witness to it, make
an entry out of it, what is it really like, the scent of a linden tree? sweetness that is
suppleness, bladder-based system of expanding and contracting, of dynamic
groupings, soft robotics for uneven terrain not so much walking as much as
shuffling, side -long pilgrimage on printed legs, sweetness that is that of being
earthbound, fully present, sweetness of your passing
presence, your being proximate to me, scented with essential oils, with frankincense with lavender
how the linden tree in seed reminds me of being that close to you, that sensory
overload of you, that burden
of abiding, just being, just brushing teeth together, bio-
scaffolding together, not always needing to take take wing find out
how a wing works replicate those principles, manufacture the same way
nature manufactures: all
the time as much as possible, where what is possible is what is
needed, what is wanting wanting law, knowledge of the law, how it works how it does
Kylan Rice has writing published in The Kenyon Review, RHINO, West Branch, The Seattle Review and elsewhere. He has an MFA in poetry from Colorado State University and is currently a PhD candidate in literature at UNC-Chapel Hill.